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Sometimes it’s hard to love after you’ve gone through negative experiences. We decide to run away from love and to say that we do not have feelings, even though we yearn to love again. But … There are some moments when, even if we want to love and give everything, that person does not understand and goes away from us…
I wanted to tell to a boy these words… „He does not understood… He does not understood how much I love him and what he means for me… From the first day … From day one I love him. I did not know why and I still do not… Maybe I’ll never know why… I love him too much… Too much… It’s my heaven, my world … I feel fulfilled, happy when I am with him… To me he is God, is all the angels, everything… He’s the one who makes the sun to rise, is the one who put the stars in the sky at night, he is light, he is the color of life… He is MY LIFE… He means the world, he’s earth and sea, plants and animals, sun and moon… I love him like I love the rain in a summer day… I love him as I love blooming trees in the spring and snow and hot chocolate in the winter… I love him as an angel… I love him as I love poetry… I love him more than I loved myself my entire life… He means everything. He’s the sunshine that illuminates my way… He’s my way to happiness… He’s the reason for my smile… He’s important to me just as wings are important for a bird or the wind for sailors… He’s more important than anything… For him I would make any sacrifice. He’s moonlight on a black sky… Heat of the fire in a cold winter day… the beauty of spring flowers… But all that he means to me is for nothing… He doesn’t sees…”.
But I think… Even if we are open, nobody is forced to do just like us. Even if some of us is accustomed to solitude… We all need someone who would do for us what we do for him. We all want to find our half…
But honestly… I think I’m unbroken. I do not want a half. I want a soul to support me… A man next to me to make me to be the best version of me. A man who can love me without changing me. A simple man. But is he coming? Or how much to wait for him? Although sometimes it’s hard… And expectations hurts… Who knows? I think positively. 🙂
Uneori e greu să iubim după ce am trecut prin experiențe negative. Ne decidem să fugim de iubire și să zicem că nu mai avem sentimente, deși noi tânjim să iubim iar. Dar… Sunt unele momente în care, deși noi vrem să iubim și să oferim tot, acea persoană nu înțelege și se depărtează de noi…
Eu am vrut să-i spun unui băiat aceste cuvinte… “El nu a înțeles… El nu a înțeles cât îl iubesc și ce înseamnă pentru mine… Din prima zi… Din prima zi îl iubesc. Nu știam de ce și nici acum nu știu.. Poate nu voi ști niciodată de ce… Îl iubesc prea mult… Mult prea mult.. E raiul meu, lumea mea… Mă simt împlinită, fericită când sunt cu el… El pentru mine e Dumnezeu, toți îngerii, absolut tot… E cel care face soarele să răsară, e cel care pune noaptea stelele pe cer, el e lumina, el e culoarea vieții… El e VIAȚA MEA.. El înseamnă lumea, el e pământul și marea, plantele și animalele, soarele și luna… Îl iubesc cum iubesc ploaia într-o zi de vară… Îl iubesc cum iubesc primăvara copacii înfloriți sau iarna ciocolata caldă și zăpada… Îl iubesc ca pe un înger… Îl iubesc cum iubesc poezia… Il iubesc mai mult decât m-am iubit pe mine toată viața.. El înseamnă tot. El e raza de soare care îmi luminează calea… El e drumul meu spre fericire… El e motivul zâmbetului meu… El e la fel de important pentru mine cum sunt importante aripile unei păsări sau vântul pentru marinari… El e mai important decât orice… Pentru el aș face orice sacrificiu… El e lumina lunii pe cerul negru.. Căldura focului într-o zi rece de iarnă… Frumusețea florilor de primăvară… Dar tot ce înseamnă el pentru mine este degeaba… El nu vede…”
Dar mă gandesc… Chiar dacă noi ne deschidem, nu e nimeni obligat să facă exact ca noi. Chiar dacă o parte din noi e obișnuită cu singurătatea… Toți avem nevoie de cineva care ar face pentru noi tot ce am face noi pentru el. Toți vrem să ne găsim jumătatea…
Dar sincer… Eu cred că sunt întreagă. Nu vreau o jumătate… Vreau un suflet care să mă susțină… Un om lângă care să fiu eu în cea mai bună variantă a mea. Un om care să mă iubească fără să mă schimbe. Un om simplu. Dar oare când vine? Sau cât să-l mai aștept..? Deși uneori e greu.. Și așteptarea doare… Cine știe? Eu gândesc pozitiv.
lovely post monica, looks like it is coming straight from your heart. i pray you get the kind of man you want, for now cheer up! If its meant to be, it will be! Bless you. xo
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Thank you, Arohii! You are so kind. Bless you, too.
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so are you my dear. 🙂
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There is always a heal for all the problem only the duration days vary.
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I know that time heals everything, but sometimes it goes too hard
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The more we fall, the more strong we’re. More time, More stronger. I guess you had experienced more which makes you a talented person.
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I don’t know if I am talented. But thanks. I write what I feel and how I feel. That’s all.
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But others know that you’re talented enough to achieve your goals!!! You make others feel with your feel!!! Honesty!!!
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Thanks again 🙂
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Thanks too again 🙂
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(I confess just for you: )
She simply appeared
In a raspberry bush in a meadow
She picked berries just for me
Handful of red sour-sweet berries to my hand
Her eyes fixed to mine and mine to hers
Burning hot lump in my heart
I didn’t know then it was my first love
Now I know love existed and still exists
Has she not been, I would not have been
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An amazing Haiku, Ashi. ❤
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🙂
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Pardon, poem 🙂 My mistake
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🙂
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You are wise, Monica…it takes decades for some to realize this. I hope he arrives in time to make you that person you see yourself being as you make him a better man. Beautiful!!
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Your words are kind and beautiful. Thank you 🙂 xoxo
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You are welcome, Monica.:) xoxo
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Lovely Monica! you are a special person!
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Many thanks, my dear Lynz
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Wow, Monica! And let me say to you that you are very talented! 🙂 X
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To be honest. That’s all a girl can write. More than this, it’s really really hard to write about one’s love. You summed it up everything possible. Do you love him that much?
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Whatever happened, happened 🙂
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Okay! 🙂
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Beautiful. Straight from the heart. Loving can be hard but you will find your special love one day Monica. xo
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I hope so, Miriam
Thanks for your warm thoughts 🙂
❤️
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Anytime Monica, anytime. xx
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Very few can love so bravely these days. Another beautiful piece, Monica.
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Indeed. Thank you very much, Joyce ❤
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Ma gandeam uneori cum ar fi ca de fiecare data cand scriem despre cineva, sa stie. Ce ar gandi? Sa citeasca un articol intamplator pe net scris de un anonim si sa nu aiba habar ca toate randurile ii sunt adresate…cum ar fi? Cand scriu, am impresia ca ii vorbesc direct, desi stiu ca niciodata nu va citi. Ti se intampla la fel? Iti doresc tot binele, sa gasesti acel special soulmate, si sa continui sa traiesti la fel de intens sentimentele. Te pup, draga mea ❤
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In momentul in care scriu totul pare real, chiar daca nu am pe nimeni in fata. Da, cred ca simt la fel ca tine 🙂
Sunt sigura insa ca, si daca ar citi ce am scris, persoana respectiva nu ar fi afectata. Am eu un feeling.
Multumesc pentru cuvintele tale calde, Andra ❤
Pup si eu,
Monica
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Wow….cat de frumos…..cata iubire…cata durere…..wow…chiar este minunat articolul tau…chiar m-a atins…si se vede ca este din suflet! Te pup! :*
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Esti tu prea draguta 🙂
Pup si eu :*
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Chiar m’a impresionat articolul tau! Superb! Felicitari! 💋🎀🎀
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Multumesc mult 🙂
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Always think positively!
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At least we have to try, right? Sometimes we will succeed, sometimes not. But we tried 🙂
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Sau poate tocmai atunci… ☺
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Cui pe cui, nu? :))
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Monica, when we let go of our foolish ideas of what love is and release expectations as to what we want in a man, love quietly comes along … yet with a lot of emotional music within … and over time, we begin to see what love truly is. I’ve once allowed myself to put a man up high and oh how I thought I loved him. When the rose colored glasses came off, I was devastated. I learned from that experience not to give myself totally but instead keep loving me first and to just allow the flower to bloom naturally over time. Love is so romanticized and that is why I think when the true nature of things is revealed, most people split. There are times when live hurts. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. But if it’s true love, that hurt will turn out to be a learning lesson. I hope I made sense.
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So beautifully said, Amy ❤
I know what you mean. Love is so crazy sometimes. I think that’s why we try it again and again. Even it hurts us, we feel well only when we love. But, as you said, we have to think a little bit more before we jump. I hope I learnt from my mistakes. Thanks for your beautiful words and constant support, my dear Amy ❤
Hugs and kisses
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Hugs and kisses, Monica!!!
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Love, Amy ❤
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WOUNDS HEAL, SCARS FADE , LOVE IS FOR EVER
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Indeed 😀
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beautiful, monica
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Aww… Many thanks, Beth ❤
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Whoever wins you will be blessed indeed
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Thank you, Derrick 🙂
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